Recently my husband’s uncle passed away unexpectedly. My husband flew to Georgia for the funeral as it would have been a 21-hour drive. I had to stay home with our children since 42 hours in a van over 3-4 days didn’t sound realistic to any of us.
I had a sad, selfish battle going on in my head. My birthday was 2 days after my husband’s uncle’s passing. Our youngest was turning 3 the day after he got back. The day after that was our 8thwedding anniversary.
All of these joyous celebrations seemed trumped by the sad news.
As I got up the morning after he left, I didn’t see a whole lot of purpose in making my bed and getting dressed. We’re not going anywhere I reasoned. And Josh isn’t home. So what’s the point? I know it would be a slow Saturday at home. My husband would be out of touch at the funeral and then visiting the rest of the day with family and friends.
Then my mind went to my husband’s aunt.
And I knew just how selfish and petty I was being. She truly had no reason to get out of bed. And making it? Who cared? Her soulmate was gone. She would not see him again in this life. What was the point of anything?
Grief is a powerful emotion.
It comes from deep within and wells up in us swallowing all reason and understanding. It’s a very human emotion. It comes from us not being able to see the big picture. Our tiny sliver of the puzzle that is life, death and Heaven cannot comprehend how God will complete the picture. We are forced to take the unknown as a mystery and a gift that we will come to understand when we leave this world.
“Because He lives I can face tomorrow. Because He lives all fear is gone. Because I know He holds the future and life is worth the living just because He lives.”
These amazing lyrics from William and Gloria Gaither resonate in times of strife, hardship and sorrow. When I hear them, I can figuratively scoop up my skirts and run to the top of a mountain. I can bear trials and sufferings because I can do anything in Him who strengthens me. Despite our weak human feelings, we are called to rise and face the day. Even when we don’t feel like it. Or see the point. Or really care.
God has great plans for us. We don’t have to know what they are, just take it day by day. He knows the future, so we can trust in Him to lead us onward. He has conquered death, so life is worth the living just because He lives.